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#41 Posted : Monday, 12 October 2020 3:31:39 a.m.(UTC)
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Thanks gambling helpline,
So far, it's a relief not to play. I'm grateful that help is close at hand.

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#42 Posted : Tuesday, 27 October 2020 4:33:06 a.m.(UTC)
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if the translation was correct, your post is about illegal gambling online (Korea) and how it is growing expedentially. It is a concern for everyone. I imagine the Governments will be doing their best to make sure they control it (and the profits) as much as they can. However, It is, as always, the individual and their family that will face the biggest loses.
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#43 Posted : Sunday, 15 November 2020 5:08:08 a.m.(UTC)
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It's 2 months since I sat at a Pokie machine. I can honestly say the craving is still there and it's still strong. However, I can resist them, I was at the RSA today and didn't go in the pokie room, I could hear the machines lol.
I still feel like I'm being punished - and I wait the days until freedom comes. But I choose this action and I know it is the right thing to do. SOme part of me is relieved that I didn't play pokies today. My day was enjoyable. And I don't feel stressed. I don't feel quilty.
I guess that is progress. But it is slow.
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#44 Posted : Monday, 16 November 2020 12:29:34 a.m.(UTC)
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Just found this forum today. Thanks for all your guys posts! Now I dont feel so alone & stupid.

Been playing pokies for 20 years. Youre right exjafa, its more like button-pushing than playing lol. So tired of the depression & self-loathing. I make quite a lot & always put it all back in. So I usually walk out with nothing or way less than I actually won that night.
So far I spent $2,500 on pokies in one month! $400 last night!

I gave my bank cards to my daughter this morning so I stop wasting money. Thanks to you guys, I learned about self-banning. Gonna do that tomorrow. Also I'll put my daughter as signatory on my business bank acct so she has to approve all transactions first. And be upfront & open with her about how much money I have on me at all times. Keeps me accountable. Im not gonna give her control of my bank accts tho. I need to sort my crap out & not just make her responsible for me.

Finally I'll call the helpline tomorrow & sort out a strategy. Will keep you guys in the loop :) Keep posting. Not much interaction but the posts are super helpful!!
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#45 Posted : Monday, 16 November 2020 8:39:00 p.m.(UTC)
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Hi Naksta,
Nice to hear from you. And you are not alone.
If I can give you any advise it would be to ring the gambling helpline. Just do it ... they are kind. They will help.
The struggle to give up is real. It’s hard (or is for me anyway).
I still feel the desire to play and while I’ve not given the pokies any money for awhile - it’s still like a monster attached to my arm.
Would be nice to hear back from you

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#46 Posted : Monday, 16 November 2020 11:30:07 p.m.(UTC)
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Hey exjafa,
I've quit off & on over the years. Sometimes I'll go 6mths without pokies. Then I think I got it under control and go back in. BAM! Hooked again. Not long before I start sinking $200 a day. Rinse. Repeat.

Its not like I'm rich either. Can barely make ends meet. Got a business grant & spent half of it on pokies. Got a loan & spent some of that. Pawned stuff off, sold stuff. Just out of control. Can't do this anymore. I don't want my daughter to lose respect for me. Or leave me.

Called Problem Gambling Foundation. Got an appt for counselling in 2 days and they'll help me with self-exclusion from multiple venues. Skycity's the worst for me cos its 24hrs and I got a Premier Rewards card. So as long as I gamble to earn enough points that day then my parking's always free. They know how to hook you in aye.

Cheers All.
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#47 Posted : Tuesday, 17 November 2020 12:13:39 a.m.(UTC)
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I hear ya .... so easy to get hooked line and sinker.
I’ve got a premier card and I live 500kms away lol. If I lived near a casino I’d have lost the plot completely.
You have made a great first step. Well done. Be proud of yourself and then your daughter can be proud of you.
I can’t tell you that your journey will be easy but your sleeps will be 😀


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#48 Posted : Monday, 23 November 2020 1:21:41 a.m.(UTC)
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I haven’t sat behind a pokie machine in 2 months ...and I wish I could say That I have lost interest. But I’d be lying.
If I didn’t have a self ban on I’d be there today.
This is going to be a long road ...
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#49 Posted : Tuesday, 24 November 2020 5:22:14 a.m.(UTC)
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how you going naksta? Did you change your mind? it's not easy.
I need to find something to take the place of pokies. You'd think that wouldn't be hard to do but so far nothing is filling the gap. I've tried the free online games and its crappy...
I've watched the guys online, youtube, and that's not bad but they are starting to annoy me.
My friends are still gambling and occassionally I hear they have won ... they are losing too ofcourse but thats not so much fun talking about

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#50 Posted : Saturday, 28 November 2020 6:57:56 a.m.(UTC)
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I've had a lovely day today. I should be feeling great. Spent the day with my daughter. Had lunch at the RSA and I didn't go anywhere near the pokie room. Went shopping, past my favourite pokie venue, didn't slow down. Spent lots of money shopping and spent lots of time with my daughter which was very very nice. No feelings of guilt, no rushing to say goodbye and then rushing to a Pokie venue.
So why don't I feel so great? I've proven to myself I can go without Pokies ...
so why are they still pulling at me now? I'd love to go to the pub (by myself or with a gambling friend) and waste lots of money .... and ofcourse maybe win some.
I cant seem to get them out of my head permanently .... even though I can see how lovely my day was without them. I wish I hadn't put my online account on 6month hold.
I am feeling sorry for myself aren't I ... harden up I hear you say. I certainly should.
I really did have a wonderful day.


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