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idiotgambler
#1 Posted : Friday, 25 October 2019 10:50:32 p.m.(UTC)
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I need to stop, end of the line. If i dont stop now, i will never stop.

ISSUE:

Ive lied, stole money, borrowed money from family, friends and girlfriend (different ones) over the past 20 years. I am now 36 and i NEED TO STOP FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, PLEASE HELP ME. Last night i dropped 2k just on pokies..WTF AM I THINKING.. and for the past month, ive lost close to 25k since the start of the year on pokies and the casino but mainly pokies. I dont know why i do what i still do. I have an issue and i seriously need help. Over the years.. i did stop a couple of years ago for about 2 years due to promising my ex gf that i would stop. But since we broke up in jan this year.. i went all out and lost control. Ive got a new gf and the cycle returns.. i vowed not to use any of her money.. but here i was in the last two months withdrawing more than 3-4k (ive paid it all back except for the money i withdrew from her card last night approximately 1.4k which i dont know how to repay). I am now trying to borrow money from friends to cover it all up.. again the lies.. im contemplating on telling her the truth as she doesnt know i gamble. I'm currently about 20k in debt to friends, owe a 25k car loan and have a student loan of approx 50k. I do not pay rent as my family is pretty well-off, im lucky in that way but then it is a nemesis as life is too easy for me. I have a pretty good job


WHY I GAMBLE:

Ive read many stories from other people on a few online forums and yes.. my reasons are similar. The boredom, the jackpot wins which i always tend to put back after a day or two and lose even more. It starts of all the same with me thinking "alright.. wouldnt it be nice to win a few hundred extra to spend this win.." and even if i do win that amount, i never walk away and lose even more of my own money. And as with others.. i just got paid 10 days ago ( i get paid monthly ) and blew whatever extra i have left after i have paid my loan on the car, car insurance, debts to other institution (approx 3k left..) and have nothing left. I have no idea why i still do it.. and i need to stop because my work in the future allows me to control company finances and having access to big sums client funds. This is definitely a worry as i cannot afford to lose my professional career that i have worked so hard to achieve in the past few years..


Where to begin... i was first introduced to gambling (slots) when i was around 16. Went to this bar in the city which never checks ID. At first the gambling was small, then i had my first taste of big wins $500 or more.. i mean back in the days it was a lot of money for a kid. My dad had some savings back then and i started stealing money (without him knowing) by stealing his ATM card and withdrawing money. I would have probably spent around 10k of that money when i was 16!.. i mean Christ who does that?? After that me and my first gf starting going to the pokies together and started gambling.. although not very big but overtime.. we had probably lost more than 10k (this was when we were about 18 years old).

I wouldnt go into more details because there has just been too much to list.. although i managed to keep away from gambling from time to time..i always tend to get back into it for no reason.. i think all up.. i would have lost over $200k to 300k over the last 20 years.. i mean WTF.. this is a deposit on a house..

I NEED TO STOP, I NEED TO STOP, I NEED TO STOP..

For gods sake.. i need to stop..
gambling_helpline
#2 Posted : Sunday, 27 October 2019 9:05:10 p.m.(UTC)
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Hi idiotgambler

Thank you for posting on the Gambling forum and sharing. It takes a lot of courage to acknowledge that you may be in need of some support. I would like to encourage you to also call the Gambling Helpline for support on 0800 654 655 if you would like to talk with someone, or you can text us on 8006 anytime; there’s someone available 24/7. We can also let you know about other support that is available, such as face to face counselling.

Kind regards
The Gambling Helpline Team
Ree
#3 Posted : Saturday, 9 November 2019 10:40:58 a.m.(UTC)
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I feel your pain and Ive been down that road to - it's a wonder i didnt bump into you. Try to be nice to yourself! Tomorrow is a new day just try again....
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